So from my own research I can definitely say I fall under the 'Gifted' category (although there seems to be a debate as to what gifted really means). What I mean when I say gifted is that I was far ahead of others in development as a child and this has had a lasting effect on me as an adult. I've been reading quite a bit about gifted adults and what kinds of problems arise. The emotional issues have been my first and foremost interest because I have an issue with depression, anxiety, self-confidence, so on and so forth. So what do I find but a very interesting article about the fact that gifted people often have existential depression. Not quite sure what to say to it other than, yeah... I know that problem.
I feel like I'm in chains most of the time. I want to live. I want to laugh and love and care. Be cared for (and I am to many extents). I'm not sure exactly what I'm waiting for or if there even is something I'm waiting for. I don't know how to just pick myself up and deal with it or if I'm capable. All I need to do is make one step at a time and I can get to where I want, yet almost constantly I feel anxiety. It constricts my heart, gives me pain, of course it's the worst when I'm actually trying to do the things that will get me to where I want to go.
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