War!

I feel like I have to declare war on myself every time I need to do something, but don't necessarily want to do that thing. I'm sure this happens to some degree with everyone. The errant pill taking I mentioned on Facebook is part of the reason. Because I have dysthymia (it's a type of depression, look it up it is kind of interesting) everything is harder for me. I will not blame my disorder for my mistakes. I am the one who has chosen not to fight. I am determined, though, to find my life! It's out there, the one God wants me to live. I am not so good on the asking for help thing, I am learning though.
I have checked out from the library "7 Habits of Highly Effective People" and am currently reading and trying to apply it. I am going to hang on to my hope for all it's worth. My counselor is right, I've been through and survived far to much to let life defeat me now. I also have to say thanks (which I do far to little of) to my friends and family which have helped and supported me along the way. You know who you are!